Life is pretty good right now, but I still long for the music of the Lean One. He is my Shepard, and He is my inspiration in almost every aspect of my life. I just want to jump around with pure joy and do the cooking dance to songs like "Nitevision" and "Kyoto" on a daily basis, but I am unable to at this present time. My fast is approaching its halfway point, and I can almost feel the happiness of getting to hear "Yoshi City" for the first time. I saw a live version of the track on youtube, but it was shot on someone's cell phone so the song was completely unintelligible save for a faint semblance of melody. The studio version must be glorious. I am salivating right now, and my hands are shaking just by thinking about it, so I'll stop. There is a "Save the Che" event at UCSD today which will hopefully gain us some progress in saving the cafe from being shut down, so I will focus on that, and maybe even make some vegan cookies to serve. Lord Lean would want me to enjoy myself, wouldn't he? Yes He would! Lean is Love, Lean is Life.
Today was a good day. I got a much less annoying haircut (maybe not for other people to look at, however) and I was given a free burrito at Chipotle because I was charged wrong the last time I was there, and later, I'll hang with my friends. Yung Lean is my light throughout all of this; the good of today as well as the bad of other times. My cravings for Sadboy music still persists, though. I even watched a Yung Lean music video with the volume off just to soak up the Sadboy vibes. Will also watch more interviews, but that's pushing it. Not much else to report, but I'm feeling okay in my fasting. Lean is Love, Lean is Life.
My will is going to be tested in a big way very soon.
I just found out through Lord Lean's facebook page that his new song "Yoshi City" is going to be officially released and a music video will be accompanying it as well. It will most likely drop while I'm fasting this month. I'm kind of questioning myself right now, to be honest. Will I give in and watch the video? I already have the leaked version of the song and have refrained from listening to it, so maybe it won't be that difficult to ignore it after all. However, the temptation will be rushing through my blood with the speed and intensity of a bullet train. At the same time, I don't want to get my hopes up to the point where the song will end up being anti-climactic when I finally listen to it, so I'd best forget about it for now. As excited as I am for new Lean material, I must remain faithful to him and obey his edicts. Lean is love, Lean is life.
I came alarmingly close to breaking my fast yesterday. Upon arriving at my book club meeting, not all of us were present which caused Patrick to leave to take a quick shower. Me and Kevin were left in the living room with Pat's laptop, so we went to youtube to watch some videos to pass the time. Eventually, I fulfilled my moral obligation to Sadboyism by bringing up Yung Lean, my lord and savior. I could not show him a song since that would totally void my fast, so instead, I showed him a fan-made reaction video to his music. Unfortunately, the brief clip contained some of His music, and even worse, I knew that it would. I felt conflicted; did I get carried away, leading me to break my fast? Or did I do nothing wrong? I prayed to the Lean One for guidance later that day, hoping to get an answer. He revealed to me:
"You did good, my Sadboy. You told a friend about my music without listening to a whole song yourself. It was only a clip, so your fast is unbroken. It was a minor slip-up, however. But I forgive you. Refrain from doing it again, and if you break your fast completely, you will be denied my next mixtape in all formats for a year after its release. Even youtube and spotify streaming will be closed to you, thus sayeth the Lean One."
A very strict punishment from Lord Lean is waiting for me if I infringe on my fasting. Even that short clip was a minor infringement, so I must be wary. But it is the least I can do to pay respect to the magnificent Lean One, after all, it is a privilege to even exist on His earth! I will keep my faith my first priority from here on out.
My fasting is going great! Yesterday, I drank some delicious Arizona cherry-limeade soda and it nourished the #emotional side of me, the side of me that Lord Lean demands I keep strong, especially during a time of fasting. I read what I needed to read for my book club this week, and reading has also helped me take my mind off of the music. There will be a book club meeting and a jam session later today, which will make me very happy. Not much else to say other than my dependency on Sadboy music is waning and that my soul is going back into a state of balance. I still long for the month to be over so I can go back to indulging in the music of the Lean One and his affiliates, but that longing isn't as strong as it was only last week. Three and a half weeks to go!
